first robbed of breath
and blinded
by a love, not intended
then caught in a whirlwind,
to be robbed of my sense of direction;
every minute with you was heaven
every minute away, I dreamt of heaven
thus you stole
my sense of time
by sneaking out and egging me to lie,
I lost all sense of right and wrong;
you said ‘I love you’ and I lost
my soul
you said ‘lets run’, I lost myself
now you’ve left, for no good reason
bereft and alone,
I’ve lost all hope
robbed of everything,
except life….
Is that good or is that not??
Friday, December 31, 2004
love came ....
Love came one day
On a cold,wintry day
Of relentless winds and unforgiving cold
Knocking on my door
To bring me warmth
‘what do you want?’ I asked
‘a place to stay’ came the reply
‘i’m sorry but I can’t ‘ said I
‘its alright, I’ll stay on the porch then’ said love
‘if it suits you,its fine with me ‘ I said
and through all those days
and winter months
love camped on my doorstep
‘taking shelter, till spring comes along
if I may?’
‘sure, any little help I can do
to make you happy,I’ll try’
I said
Time flew in between shared dinners
and story telling
winter went its way, as it always does
and spring came along, as it always does
bringing with it blooming trees
blossoming flowers, twittering birds
happy faces , cheer and joy
and love stayed on
for me. (forever).
On a cold,wintry day
Of relentless winds and unforgiving cold
Knocking on my door
To bring me warmth
‘what do you want?’ I asked
‘a place to stay’ came the reply
‘i’m sorry but I can’t ‘ said I
‘its alright, I’ll stay on the porch then’ said love
‘if it suits you,its fine with me ‘ I said
and through all those days
and winter months
love camped on my doorstep
‘taking shelter, till spring comes along
if I may?’
‘sure, any little help I can do
to make you happy,I’ll try’
I said
Time flew in between shared dinners
and story telling
winter went its way, as it always does
and spring came along, as it always does
bringing with it blooming trees
blossoming flowers, twittering birds
happy faces , cheer and joy
and love stayed on
for me. (forever).
If beauty be what I see....
If beauty be what I see
Then beauty is a rarity
For rare is the event
That I see
A genuine smile lighting up
In sweet grace
Styled hair and a plastered smile
Seem to me, to be everywhere
Doesn’t man get tired to see
These dolls stationed everywhere?
With empty heads and selfish hearts
Beauty found at a local mart
Pity ebbs to see them smile
Why god,
Do you commit such crimes?
Heavenly maidens on this earth
Of perfect features and overflowing mirth
Girlish laughter and innocence
Are they extinct or the flawless of goddesses?
Then beauty is a rarity
For rare is the event
That I see
A genuine smile lighting up
In sweet grace
Styled hair and a plastered smile
Seem to me, to be everywhere
Doesn’t man get tired to see
These dolls stationed everywhere?
With empty heads and selfish hearts
Beauty found at a local mart
Pity ebbs to see them smile
Why god,
Do you commit such crimes?
Heavenly maidens on this earth
Of perfect features and overflowing mirth
Girlish laughter and innocence
Are they extinct or the flawless of goddesses?
Moment of Truth
the second that all the world will stop
and then erupt with chaos-
of no precedence
when politicians will decry
all promises made by rye
when all industrial giants, they
follow the handbook of honesty
when each teacher puts foremost-
education
when all caste, creed and religion denounced
by the men of god, so pronounced
color will be no barrier thence
when petty thieves and robbers will
find words for their vent,
when all war will find
a place to end
then, judgment passed
each one his own,
then chaos and lies again,
a complicated mess
from beginning to end
and then erupt with chaos-
of no precedence
when politicians will decry
all promises made by rye
when all industrial giants, they
follow the handbook of honesty
when each teacher puts foremost-
education
when all caste, creed and religion denounced
by the men of god, so pronounced
color will be no barrier thence
when petty thieves and robbers will
find words for their vent,
when all war will find
a place to end
then, judgment passed
each one his own,
then chaos and lies again,
a complicated mess
from beginning to end
lady of the night
Lady of the night
Cloaked in white
Of light from
The sun, so bright
Beauty she is,
To all who behold her
Loving by night,
Leaving at first light
Coaxing even owls to wake
Shedding light on lonely shapes
Inspiring every poet alive
Witnessing tears from a million eyes
Watching children in peaceful sleep
Lovers fight and lovers weep
And the homeless take a great deep breathe,
For a day gone by, in quiet relief
Gently she rocks, all to sleep
Just for a little while
Amid dreams and peace
And in the waking of the eye,
She’s chased by the sun
And engulfed by the night,
The moon, mistress of light.
Cloaked in white
Of light from
The sun, so bright
Beauty she is,
To all who behold her
Loving by night,
Leaving at first light
Coaxing even owls to wake
Shedding light on lonely shapes
Inspiring every poet alive
Witnessing tears from a million eyes
Watching children in peaceful sleep
Lovers fight and lovers weep
And the homeless take a great deep breathe,
For a day gone by, in quiet relief
Gently she rocks, all to sleep
Just for a little while
Amid dreams and peace
And in the waking of the eye,
She’s chased by the sun
And engulfed by the night,
The moon, mistress of light.
……I don’t know what to title it…..
I know you too well
To say I don’t know
Your beautiful expressive eyes
Clouded with tears
Endless rivulets of salty
Waters down your cheeks
Full lips in a thin line
Quivering and quaking
Disaster strikes everyone
You’ve just got to stand up and fight
If I could be there
You know I would
But the die is cast
And the coins moved
Decisions made can’t be unmade
But life has been good, for you and for me
Don’t waste it now in sorrow or bury yourself in fear
For, every flower you enjoy, withers at the end of the day
But a new one blooms, the very next and the fragrance remains
Such is love, for the loved one passes but the love remains
If, when a new one comes, it may fade a little but ever remain
So loose not hope till the last breath you take
So loose not hope every minute of the day
For in loving you I found, sunshine is for everyman’s hay
As long as he’s alive that day
To say I don’t know
Your beautiful expressive eyes
Clouded with tears
Endless rivulets of salty
Waters down your cheeks
Full lips in a thin line
Quivering and quaking
Disaster strikes everyone
You’ve just got to stand up and fight
If I could be there
You know I would
But the die is cast
And the coins moved
Decisions made can’t be unmade
But life has been good, for you and for me
Don’t waste it now in sorrow or bury yourself in fear
For, every flower you enjoy, withers at the end of the day
But a new one blooms, the very next and the fragrance remains
Such is love, for the loved one passes but the love remains
If, when a new one comes, it may fade a little but ever remain
So loose not hope till the last breath you take
So loose not hope every minute of the day
For in loving you I found, sunshine is for everyman’s hay
As long as he’s alive that day
Engineers…MBAs…Economics…
It was an argument that a friend of mine brought up a couple of days back…..’why do you engineers, after your engineering degree want to do an MBA or a course in finance or economics and take our jobs too?’….my friend who raised this argument is finishing her commerce degree this year. If anybody else had argued the case I would have just shrugged it off with a you-should-be-smart-enough-to-hold-a-job gibe but she is one of my closest pals from school and that remark of hers got me thinking.
Most of us engineers never stop to think of the number of people, with degrees got over three years, who we put out of jobs every year.
It doesn’t take anyone too long to figure out whether the CEO of a company is going to back a candidate with an Engineering degree or one with a B.Sc or B.Comm degree. And why are we the pets of numerous prospective employers??? Because we’ve done a ‘professional’ course.
Just how many of us actually take up “professional” jobs ?how many engineers take up call center jobs every year? How many many engineers do an MBA- IIM or otherwise? How many engineers go back to the family business or get married? How many engineers of electronics, electrical, chemical and mechanical take up jobs in IT consultancy firms each year? Aren’t engineers with an MBA considered quite a combination / catch- for a job or a marriage? Just how many people in our lives have we met who take up one line of pursuit in education and in their career? Aren’t they more or less novelties?
In my three years of engineering at SVCE, whether or not I’ve become more knowledgeable about my engineering discipline, what I have gained are valuable insights and experiences in dealing with various kinds of people, lessons in team work, general knowledge in engineering, the knowledge that everything is inter-related and that more often than not engineering is just logic, common sense and an in-depth analysis backed by mathematical data, just as everything else is too. And its not just engineers from anywhere who don’t get engineering job opportunities without experience, even engineers from IITs face similar problems.
So just as it is mandatory for a good doctor to know the chemicals present in the drugs he prescribes so that he can account for back-firing drugs and side-effects, just as it is a done-deal that most textile designers know the dyes, processing chemicals and working of their looms, as any psychiatrist needs to know every patient’s background and daily environment, as every finance minister needs to know the intricacies of the supply and demand of every commodity in the market and their consumers, so too I believe does every engineer need to know his economics, balance sheet management, end-product consumers, competitors, stock-market, ethics, public relations, stress management and a bit of procrastination.
So if we step on a few toes in the process, sorry, but I doubt it can be helped!!!
Most of us engineers never stop to think of the number of people, with degrees got over three years, who we put out of jobs every year.
It doesn’t take anyone too long to figure out whether the CEO of a company is going to back a candidate with an Engineering degree or one with a B.Sc or B.Comm degree. And why are we the pets of numerous prospective employers??? Because we’ve done a ‘professional’ course.
Just how many of us actually take up “professional” jobs ?how many engineers take up call center jobs every year? How many many engineers do an MBA- IIM or otherwise? How many engineers go back to the family business or get married? How many engineers of electronics, electrical, chemical and mechanical take up jobs in IT consultancy firms each year? Aren’t engineers with an MBA considered quite a combination / catch- for a job or a marriage? Just how many people in our lives have we met who take up one line of pursuit in education and in their career? Aren’t they more or less novelties?
In my three years of engineering at SVCE, whether or not I’ve become more knowledgeable about my engineering discipline, what I have gained are valuable insights and experiences in dealing with various kinds of people, lessons in team work, general knowledge in engineering, the knowledge that everything is inter-related and that more often than not engineering is just logic, common sense and an in-depth analysis backed by mathematical data, just as everything else is too. And its not just engineers from anywhere who don’t get engineering job opportunities without experience, even engineers from IITs face similar problems.
So just as it is mandatory for a good doctor to know the chemicals present in the drugs he prescribes so that he can account for back-firing drugs and side-effects, just as it is a done-deal that most textile designers know the dyes, processing chemicals and working of their looms, as any psychiatrist needs to know every patient’s background and daily environment, as every finance minister needs to know the intricacies of the supply and demand of every commodity in the market and their consumers, so too I believe does every engineer need to know his economics, balance sheet management, end-product consumers, competitors, stock-market, ethics, public relations, stress management and a bit of procrastination.
So if we step on a few toes in the process, sorry, but I doubt it can be helped!!!
death, destruction and my dilemma....
We’ve all seen the mass destruction of property, lives, livelihood and hope in the past few days wrought by the onslaught of tsunamis. Its 5 days since the sea quake occurred off the coast of Sumatra and triggered off the numerous tsunamis that attacked India, Sri Lanka, The Maldives, parts of Africa, Thailand and Indonesia.
We’re still finding bodies washed onto shores. There is as yet no ball park accurate figure of the number of people who’ve lost their lives. And there are close to 5 million people dislocated without a roof over their heads. These I’ve been watching on the television and reading in the news, day in and day out for the past few days.
What tremors Chennai felt that Sunday, was lost to me. I’d been sleeping when it occurred, given that it was 6:45 in the morning on a Sunday at the start of my ten day break from college. Even afterwards it never occurred to me that this could be anything of such magnitude as I’ve seen proof of these past few days. I figured it was just another bunch of mild tremors to hit Tamil Nadu, as it happened a couple of years back. Not in my wildest dreams would this have been even a remote scenario.
But its reality. Its happened. There are rescue operations underway in more than 5 countries. Aid from almost every other country and organization. Food and clothes being packed to reach the victims. Politicians visiting the battered families to offer their sympathies and console them. And there are still more dead to be brought ashore or identified. Still more people who haven’t been touched by the helping groups.
It’s new year’s eve. Everybody has put a stop to their entertainment and bringing-in-the-new-year mood to channel that money and energy to help those who need it. I am one of those people.
I’ve contributed money. I’ve contributed clothes. I’m shit freaked of helping with clearing the beaches or helping the hurt ‘coz it will upset me and upset me bad. That’s actually being selfish. But I just can’t think of doing it. The other thing is that I don’t know who to approach to volunteer for helping them pack food, clothes, utensils and medicines that can be distributed. Now that I’m actually putting this down in writing, it seems to me to be more of an excuse. So here I am, sitting in my house safe, praying those hurt and homeless, contributing with clothes and money but not hands on work. I’m irritated with myself. But when I think of volunteering, I think of the number of people already volunteering and of the number of international rescue workers and think of the adage ‘too many cooks spoil the broth’. And then there is also the thought of whether the victims actually do receive all the aid set aside for them. It wouldn’t be the first time that money from genuine causes have been embezzled to fatten the pockets of various middle men. But then again you think, who would be so heartless as to take from these people what they don’t have….
I still don’t know what I’m gonna do, but putting it down on paper has sure helped me….
We’re still finding bodies washed onto shores. There is as yet no ball park accurate figure of the number of people who’ve lost their lives. And there are close to 5 million people dislocated without a roof over their heads. These I’ve been watching on the television and reading in the news, day in and day out for the past few days.
What tremors Chennai felt that Sunday, was lost to me. I’d been sleeping when it occurred, given that it was 6:45 in the morning on a Sunday at the start of my ten day break from college. Even afterwards it never occurred to me that this could be anything of such magnitude as I’ve seen proof of these past few days. I figured it was just another bunch of mild tremors to hit Tamil Nadu, as it happened a couple of years back. Not in my wildest dreams would this have been even a remote scenario.
But its reality. Its happened. There are rescue operations underway in more than 5 countries. Aid from almost every other country and organization. Food and clothes being packed to reach the victims. Politicians visiting the battered families to offer their sympathies and console them. And there are still more dead to be brought ashore or identified. Still more people who haven’t been touched by the helping groups.
It’s new year’s eve. Everybody has put a stop to their entertainment and bringing-in-the-new-year mood to channel that money and energy to help those who need it. I am one of those people.
I’ve contributed money. I’ve contributed clothes. I’m shit freaked of helping with clearing the beaches or helping the hurt ‘coz it will upset me and upset me bad. That’s actually being selfish. But I just can’t think of doing it. The other thing is that I don’t know who to approach to volunteer for helping them pack food, clothes, utensils and medicines that can be distributed. Now that I’m actually putting this down in writing, it seems to me to be more of an excuse. So here I am, sitting in my house safe, praying those hurt and homeless, contributing with clothes and money but not hands on work. I’m irritated with myself. But when I think of volunteering, I think of the number of people already volunteering and of the number of international rescue workers and think of the adage ‘too many cooks spoil the broth’. And then there is also the thought of whether the victims actually do receive all the aid set aside for them. It wouldn’t be the first time that money from genuine causes have been embezzled to fatten the pockets of various middle men. But then again you think, who would be so heartless as to take from these people what they don’t have….
I still don’t know what I’m gonna do, but putting it down on paper has sure helped me….
Saturday, December 18, 2004
misty madras mornings...
i was up this morning at 4:20,to drive my mom to the temple.though it wasn't at all pleasing my mom that was foremost on my mind when i offered to drive her but the oppurtunity of getting to drive back alone at a time when my speed and skill wasn't going to be scrutinized was just too good to let it go by...
and...i got what i asked for..empty madras roads(its become such a rare sight), good music and chilly winds....its always a pleasure driving...and when its less than a year since u got your license...its such a treat..especially without my dad in the car....
and on the drive back i actually saw corporation workers laying the road again and workers cleaning up...it was such a sight to actually see all these people up and working when actually all of us have the biggest of misconceptions about how government servants shirk and shy away from what their work...i have seen evidence to counter this thought in the past few weeks....with some vigorous road laying and pavement cleaning(though its at the cost of some lush greenery)..i'm willing to change my opinion...
its not just these people i encountered the roads that has brought about this chnge in my way of thinking...i visited the pollution control board of tamilnadu about a week back with a couple of friends.its a nice building...nothing that'll make heads turn...but clean,functional and ordered..with a very informative library and a very willing and helpful librarian...sure,there were more people than there was work for them to do...but that isn't their fault is it??there were the lazy ones,but isn't that natural of anyone who over time has seen so little of work come their way...they need to be motivated,inspired and made to recognise the impacts of doing something on time and effectively...i think i'm drifting here...
let me just finish up and say that madras has more to offer than most of us residents of the city know of ....it'll take a while for us to discover them and there are lots of compromises too...early mornings...as early as 4 am, driving long distances...reading maps....but of what i've encountered these lat couple of weeks with a map and a car...i'll bet my money..many others would enjoy the sights i've come across too....
and...i got what i asked for..empty madras roads(its become such a rare sight), good music and chilly winds....its always a pleasure driving...and when its less than a year since u got your license...its such a treat..especially without my dad in the car....
and on the drive back i actually saw corporation workers laying the road again and workers cleaning up...it was such a sight to actually see all these people up and working when actually all of us have the biggest of misconceptions about how government servants shirk and shy away from what their work...i have seen evidence to counter this thought in the past few weeks....with some vigorous road laying and pavement cleaning(though its at the cost of some lush greenery)..i'm willing to change my opinion...
its not just these people i encountered the roads that has brought about this chnge in my way of thinking...i visited the pollution control board of tamilnadu about a week back with a couple of friends.its a nice building...nothing that'll make heads turn...but clean,functional and ordered..with a very informative library and a very willing and helpful librarian...sure,there were more people than there was work for them to do...but that isn't their fault is it??there were the lazy ones,but isn't that natural of anyone who over time has seen so little of work come their way...they need to be motivated,inspired and made to recognise the impacts of doing something on time and effectively...i think i'm drifting here...
let me just finish up and say that madras has more to offer than most of us residents of the city know of ....it'll take a while for us to discover them and there are lots of compromises too...early mornings...as early as 4 am, driving long distances...reading maps....but of what i've encountered these lat couple of weeks with a map and a car...i'll bet my money..many others would enjoy the sights i've come across too....
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